DJ DethSmoke "FREE CHARLIE" Streaming on Youtube

I've decided to release a rarities album called "FREE CHARLIE" which is streaming for free on my Youtube channel. It is a collection of b-sides from my early days as a DJ. It is a horrorcore album, mostly instrumental. All of the songs are available for download on my Reverbnation page, www.reverbnation.com/DJSCAVENG3R420/ 

DJ DethSmoke, Kannabis Krew Rekordz, Copywrite 2013 - 2015

My honest opinions on "Happiness"

Some people in life just want to be "happy."

I've met rich people who are miserable, and I've met homeless people happier than most.

I've met people who are only happy when drunk or doing drugs,

and I've met people who feel as if only other people can make them happy,

like their pursuit of happiness will end with a relationship.

This sounds cheesy as fuck, but happiness comes from within.

ALL emotions are simply just chemical reactions in our brains.

Logically, our emotions are pointless, which is why lately I feel so apathetic towards everyone and everything, even if I am hurt or saddened, it's better to just stop caring about the pain. When you stop caring about everyone else and the world around you, somehow the world seems less scary. When you stop caring about happiness, ironically you will find some happiness in life.

People are not responsible for my emotions. I could go on for hours, days, even months talking about all the people who fucked me over and all the others I fucked over likewise. It doesn't matter who or what is to blame, because quite honestly it's too exhausting and tiring to waste my brain power being argumentative. Nobody should expect perfection from somebody else. Sometimes people do the right thing for the wrong reason, sometimes people do the wrong thing for the right reason, and sometimes the right and the wrong things are the same things.

This blog is a bit of a ramble, just random thoughts on my mind.

I became a philosopher and studied psychology to better understand the world.

All it's done is make me question everything twice as much.

Recovery Blog

Sadness gives depth. Happiness gives height. Sadness gives roots. Happiness gives branches. Happiness is like a tree going into the sky, and sadness is like the roots going down into the womb of the earth. Both are needed, and the higher a tree goes, the deeper it goes, simultaneously. The bigger the tree, the bigger will be its roots. In fact, it is always in proportion. That’s its balance.

This is something I found on an artist's page that really spoke with me.
In other news, I am attending A.A. again and taking the program seriously.
I only have 14 days sober of alcohol and hard drugs, I am currently working the steps.
Letting go of resentments and saying the serenity prayer helps with my resentments.
I am still a non-believer and skeptic of religion, however I am in recovery.

Fuck Humans, I'm a Fox now.

I'm a misanthrope, I have a general dislike for human nature and human society. When I think long and hard about my life, my past, everything that has happened whether it was inside or outside of my control, I've realized something: Humans are the cause of all my pain. Human beings, the most wicked and disgusting creatures on this planet, have caused me the most pain in the world. Animals have never hurt me, and sometimes I wonder if I am truly an animal, that my spirit or soul or whatever is not that of a human. I've never fit in with any crowd, except for the occasional stoner and drunk cliques, but I do not truly identify with any human culture, subculture, or counterculture. I describe myself as a nihilist, however I do not get along with other nihilists for various reasons. I'm sick of being stabbed in the back, hurt, and humiliated by humans. I've been reading a little bit about otherkin, and I will touch more on that topic some other time. Animals and nature are beautiful, I feel they give unconditional love and a sense of welcome which I never get from humans.

Ok, enough of the hippie philosophy for today.

I'm gonna drink some tea and smoke some weed.

Have a good day ^_^

I'm working on my art again

"Untitled," by Antisocial Nihilist

Antisocial Media

I've decided that, with the exception of Youtube and Google Plus, I am no longer using social media. I've deactivated my Facebook for the final time and continue to not use social media. It's a waste of time and honestly my blogs / vlogs take enough of my time. I don't know why I use Facebook anymore, it's just a narcissistic tech addiction that causes more drama than "connecting."

Antisocial Nihilist has spoken.
Tomorrow's blog: Otherkin

Self-Loathing Narcissism

This is a theory I've made on "self-loathing narcissists."

The phrase itself sounds like an oxymoron--how can somebody be obsessed with themselves but also hate themselves? In my definition, a self-loathing narcissist is somebody who hates themselves and hates being alone so much he will do anything to make others like them. He will pretend to fit in, cave in to peer pressure, and will change his personality just so others will think highly of them. They will do selfless things for selfish reasons, such as donate to charity or give money to the homeless, only if others will think highly of them. This is most likely the result of no self esteem, neglect, abuse and rejection suffered all through the S.L.N.'s lifetime.

This is just a psychological theory I've been thinking about.
I am just now waking up and I need some coffee.

I hope everyone had a good 4/20. Stay High ^_^