Self-Loathing Narcissism

This is a theory I've made on "self-loathing narcissists."

The phrase itself sounds like an oxymoron--how can somebody be obsessed with themselves but also hate themselves? In my definition, a self-loathing narcissist is somebody who hates themselves and hates being alone so much he will do anything to make others like them. He will pretend to fit in, cave in to peer pressure, and will change his personality just so others will think highly of them. They will do selfless things for selfish reasons, such as donate to charity or give money to the homeless, only if others will think highly of them. This is most likely the result of no self esteem, neglect, abuse and rejection suffered all through the S.L.N.'s lifetime.

This is just a psychological theory I've been thinking about.
I am just now waking up and I need some coffee.

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